Long time no see
Since my last personal post here on tumblr, my life has changed sooo much. Crazy how much half a year can do for you. I feel like myself again.
Briefly reading through my last posts on here, I realize what a fucking mess I was! It’s scary to realize what a dark place I was in before but at the same time it’s inspiring to know that I’ve overcome it.
I’ve officially and successfully removed a person from life who used to BE my life for 5 whole years. I was at my breaking point and I was really suffering physically and emotionally. I finally got a grip on myself and said, “No more!” I finally realized I was worth more than how this person treated me. It’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made so far.
My life has completely transformed for the better. I no longer work 7 days a week. I have a REAL career now that I love and get paid way more for doing it. I have weekends to myself and never work ridiculous amounts of hours a day. I have vacation time and benefits! I’m going back to school for my Masters in the Summer and am currently taking classes to get my Special Education permit. I’ve lost so many pounds and exercise regularly. I eat healthier. I hardly ever feel depressed anymore or have anxiety/panic attacks. I have more time towards my interests like art, reading, yoga, gardening, etc. that I never ever had time for before. My relationships with my family and friends have become stronger now that I have more time and energy to spend with them.
I still think about the past from time to time. I can’t completely erase it from my mind but knowing all of the things I’ve accomplished since then help me move past all of those negative thoughts. When this person betrayed me and my life fell apart even more than it already had, I thought I was being punished by the Universe. I realize now though, that the Universe blessed me with the opportunity to break free from what was destroying my life.
It feels so good to be back! (literally and figuratively) I hope everyone is doing wonderful and can’t wait to start tumbling again and to read/see all of your posts! <3